You know, it’s summer again and after last year’s hot hot hot vacation in Italy, we decided to go cooler 😎 We went to northern Germany, the Baltic Sea to be “exact”. It’s actually a bit farther away than the Adriatic Sea, but it looks like the Mediterranean is getting unbearable for us. So we took our kids and drove up here, spending two nights “on the road”, just to get here.
The camping site we ended up on, is a bit strange, because there are lot of signs forbidding this and that and I’ve never been told what I can and cannot do this often in this short a time frame. It’s not bad enough to leave, but we probably will be looking for alternatives next year.
Anyhow, I have started writing again, as you see, and just like summer, this too seems to be a recurring theme. Reflecting on the “peak” of the year.
Interestingly, even though this is not our “classical” summer vacation with sun and beach, because there is less heat and therefore less reason to be in the water, this vacation has proven to be more relaxing.
And more relaxing for me, does mean I have to worry less about the world outside and I get to go deeper into my own problems. They still are more abundant, than I would hope for. And while I try to resolve my issues, new ones pop up like daisies 🌸 in the spring (I actually don’t know if daisies grow this early in the year and I can’t find information about it right now, but it sounds good 😇).
I’l probably do another post about my current healing journey, which started somewhere around my last post in February, but for now, let’s stick to the big picture of what happened since.
In March, I started a 300 hours Yoga teacher training together with my friend. It included Asana training, Ashtanga Vinyasa training, “advanced” Asanas and afterwards, there were three weeks of “Chakra Shuddi”. It also included other stuff like Yoga philosophy, Pranayama, Ayurveda and anatomy, but that is not important right now.
For me, the important part was doing soooo many Asanas and using my body this much for something else than sitting around (yes, I do other stuff like walking and Zumba, but it’s not as controlled and conscious). It literally gave me a new feeling of my body and what I can do with it. After all, my experiences in this life probably led me as far away from my body as possible.
So the last years have been all about getting back into my body. I know, yogis are more about getting out of it, but It seems to be my journey, to get back. All this pain, which has been stored in my body, needs to get out, so I can get in. I know, yoga promises the path to enlightenment and self-awareness, but I have found, that while parts of yoga are helpful for me, it’s overall direction (which has been shaped mainly by men) does not fit my path.
I probably will do another post about Chakra Shuddi, which has been crazy none the less, but for now let me point out, that on the day after yoga finished, I had a full-blown fallback to shamanism and magic. After I climbed out of the hole, that Yoga threw me in, I signed up for a new course called “Human Energetic Practitioner”, which has already started 😆
That’s all for now.
