I postponed publishing this post for other posts. But now, here it is.Yesterday was the third Tarot course of six and it also was the first time I offered to read cards for someone else. This post is actually hard to write for me right now. I don’t know why yet. I’ll push through and we will see, what happens.
But first things first. The instructor greeted us and told us, he wants to do a guided visualization today. A visualization to find the clairvoyance-persona within us that we would be using to read the cards from now on. Fine by me, I’m all in for new experiences.
First, we should draw a card, which would represent our clairvoyance-persona. I drew “La lune”, the moon. The interesting thing is, I knew that, before I drew the card. Did I influence what card I would draw by thinking about it beforehand? We’ll never know.
Then he started and told us, to visualize a place in nature. I think I wrote about it already, I have a rather special place in my heart. It’s a campfire in a forest with two of my past lives (Julia the witch and Iris the shaman) sitting left of me, my shaman teacher sitting on the other side of the fire. My inner child is also running around. Sometimes there are two men on my right side. I have not yet definitely determined, who they are. Probably past lives, too. Anyhow, this is where I started.
He told us, to imagine a rift floating in the air before us. We should investigate the rift and eventually pass through it onto the other side, where a place with dimly glowing stones on the floor and a night sky full of stars waited for us. I was sure, the moon was there, too. Must have been a new moon.
He wanted us, to climb a mountain in the distance and once on top, we saw a lake which was as flat as a mirror, reflecting the night sky. We should feel lighter and lighter and finally lift off the ground. Then he asked us, to fly towards the lake and stop above it. Staring into the mirror-lake, we envisioned our clairvoyance-persona rising from below the waters surface. He intended it to be the card, we drew earlier. Well…
From the depths of the lake I saw a temple rise. A small temple. Christians would call it a chapel. There are columns with a roof on top, like the romans would have built it. A private place for contemplation and prayer, with a statue of Venus (don’t know yet, why she is here) and some flowers arranged on a round table made from marble. There is also a small bench to sit and watch the sky.
He then asked us, to feel what it meant and I had the distinct sensation of a vast expanse within me. Peace. Finally. I have felt this sensation before. Not this vast, but every time I did another step towards my true self, I had more space within me. This time, it felt like I am a priestess of the moon and this is the place, where I can be free.
He then asked us, to become one with the persona we saw. But I did not have to. It would have been hard anyway, because there was no one there. There was just a promise. A promise, to return to this place, whenever I need peace and freedom. Because I already am on my way to become this priestess. I don’t know yet, where she will lead me, but I definitely will find out.
We ended the visualization and came back to reality. After a short break, he showed us some patterns in which we could draw cards in and then asked, if someone had a question. One person had a question, but no one wanted to draw cards for her. So I raised my hand.
I do not yet know, what happened, but I shuffled the cards and three of them fell out. I put them in front of me and then I blanked. I was unable, to read anything from them. I just could not concentrate, I was overwhelmed by some sensation, I still cannot pin down. My best guess is, that it is the next step after last time, when my body began to shake. I am getting tired right now, which usually means, I’m supressing something. I’ll get back to you tomorrow…
More days than planned have passed, but that is ok, this is life. I did meditate the next evening and after a while, I had the impression, that something is floating right beside the left side of my head. Something shaped like a ball and it gave me the impression of being an eye. I am no longer concerned by the things my mind makes up and I did, what I always do: I invited it, to come home (I know, I am crazy). It turns out, I healed or extended my consciousness of my third eye that day. I’m exited to find out, what this new information has in store for me in the future.
Love, Julia