You know, it’s a new moon today and a few minutes ago I let go of an old part of me, that kept me safe for many decades. It made sure I would not embarrass myself by talking about spirits and energies and stuff. It made sure, I waited until I was ready to embrace that important part of me fully.
But at the same time, this protection lay heavy on my heart. It stopped me from being myself and when I got stressed, it tightened my chest and throat. It made me speak ever louder with ever more effort to even get another word out.
The last few days I made a few steps forward. I updated my website, I wrote an application to an association of spiritual healers and I made myself visible in a catalogue of consultants and healers.
Those are no big steps by themselfes. Just an email and a letter. But they mean, that I open myself up to the possibility of moving my life into that direction. I just thought about writing, that this should have been my direction all along. But writing that felt wrong. So I write this instead: It took me 42 years to get here. I have learned so much about me, other people and the universe itself. I have made so many friends, real and in the spirit world. This is the speed, that I am supposed to have. Whis is my way.
I do not know, what will happen next. I will accept the part, which the universe assigns me to. Right now, I formulate that part like this:
I accompany people for a while on their journey back to the source. I support them to overcome the obstacles on their way by showing them new paths.
We’ll see, if I have to update that in a few years. But right now, I’m comfortable with it, because this is, what my life has been about for quite some time now.
I bow down in deep gratitude to the guardians of the elements, the powers of the universe, my undying soul, my ancestors and my goddess Luna. I am your humble servant and priestess. Guide my way.
