Voices
On the road again
You know, I’m on a short vacation with my daughter for two nights. We’re visiting a petting zoo nearby and winding down a bit. School is quite exhausting. For the kids and for us.
I’m not only on a physical journey, but on a spiritual one, too. Well, I’m pretty much constantly on a spiritual journey. But adding the physical one packs some extra punch.
Lately, I’m hearing voices in my head. Like a constant whisper in the background. I’m not yet sure, what this is. I have been working on the tenseness in my neck and shoulder area. It seems like the tenseness is coming from me trying not to hear the voices. Maybe I found this method as a kid. I had no other options available and turned to a stiff neck and shoulders to prevent me from hearing them. Or maybe this method stems from a previous life.
I guess it does not really matter. The question is, what do I do? Ignoring them seems not to be an option if I want to get rid of the tension. I am somewhat afraid of the voices. I don’t think there is a special reason for that, other than me not wanting to be crazy, of course.
There seem to be louder ones that want my attention and a lot of noise in the background. A quick youtube search only reveals some creepy music videos but nothing of direct use. I guess, I will do, what I always do. Surrender and accept.
Maybe the fear of the voices is just again my ego being afraid of dying a little more. Maybe this is me being more sensitive, again. After all, I do get the feeling I should be more able to communicate with the other side, than I am. I will find out.
I surrender.
Love, J